The sun is setting in the "land of the rising sun"

Listening to: Count on me by Bruno Mars
Currently drinking: What else but a Starbucks double short mocha?

Starbucks from my recent trip into the Nagoya city and Animate!!

Tomorrow marks the official one month countdown to closing ceremony at NUFS; three days later I'll be on getting on yet another giant plane, preparing to embark on my eighteen hour (with layovers) transit back to America. I feel like excitement should be bursting from every pore of my body, yet instead it's been recently going through the series of negative reactions I usually get when going through severe anxiety...great. Over the past week I think I've slept, at most, four hours a night, eating has been becoming increasingly difficult, and my want to do anything has diminished to practically zero. I want so badly to enjoy my remaining days here, but for some reason I just keep obsessing about what it will be like to restart back in the States. I was talking with Amanda the other day and we kind of both came to the sudden realization that we have so little time left, although it's worse for her because she's been here since last fall. The worst part is that I feel like I've finally gotten comfortable with my life here, and I have to uproot all over again and restart. It also sucks that I have to go back to being an adult...I mean who doesn't like living in a giant, beautiful house, where practically everything is provided for you (not to mention the fact that everyone tells you how amazing your are)?

I know I talked before about not feeling any culture shock about being in Japan, but I'm worried that, upon returning to the States, everything is going to be incredibly overwhelming. Honestly, I think the weirdest part will be being surrounded by so many white people 0.o Obviously, there are many wonderful things about returning home (i.e. seeing family, graduating, my puppy, and possibly the Pirate...depending), but I am just hoping that, once I get back home, I won't regret not doing enough during my time here. On a side note: I am going to start applying for teaching jobs in Japan for after I graduate, both through JET and private contracts, as well as several other countries I've been considering. Anyway, tomorrow we have our "return home" meeting, in which we will be discussing all of the logistics of our return flights and departing information, and I am both looking forward to and dreading going. There are several more excursions planned for our time left, but after that I will be pretty busy with preparations to leave and final projects, but I definitely still plan on updating you guys!

Ciao for now and lattes of <3<3<3